Feeling: troubled

Listening to: "From the Inside" LP

"From the Inside" Linkin Park

Don't know who to trust
No surprise
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts sift through dust
And the lies

Trying not to break
But I'm so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself
Get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how
Trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me

I take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
'Cause I swear
For the last time
I won't trust myself with you

Tension is building inside
Steadily
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts forcing their way
Out of me

I won't trust myself with you
I won't waste myself on you
Waste myself on you

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So I finally decide to open up. I had something really important to tell you... but no.

And you know what? I don't even fucking care. I really don't. I can blast my music and write my suicide poems- it'll make me feel just as good as talking to you. Forget about me. Hang with your goddamn friends. I. Don't. Fucking. Care.

As I type this, I can see my cell phone ringing silently. I can see your name flash across the tiny screen in brilliant, black letters. I can't pick it up. And even if I did, it would just get thrown across the room in rage, anyway.

4 Llamas Perdidas

Remember that one tournament when you decided you needed to "save me" from the creepy guy talking to me? I told you that you didn't have to save me. I'm NOT some helpless little princess that needed to be rescued. I can take care I've myself. I am stronger than you will ever understand.

And after I told you I was not a princess, you laughed quietly and kissed my hand.

>.<

6 Llamas Perdidas

Dammit you're not going away.

I'm tired of trying to trust you. I'm sick of having my heart ripped in two.

I love you more than life, but you drain what little life I have.

...

I Love You So Much.

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